Weirdo

Today,
Rou said she is interested for the empty room of my house and she wanna to come over after class by tomoro. Then, i just sms the so called "person-in-charge" here to ask to leave both empty rooms open. She replied and asked me to ask Rou come by weekend because she need to look through Rou first. This is the normal RULE they practice all the while.

Well, then i said Rou only want to take a look the rooms or help her friends to take a look. After she or her friend confirmed want to rent the room, then only arrange time for the person who confirm want to rent n her to meet up.

WTHeavenly nice she replied then, she also not confirm want to rent the room for that person or not, even when that person confirm want to rent the room. I need to meet the person before letting them to take a look at the room. So sory that i cannot leave the room open for taking a look because it is my responsibility. That's how we "practice all the while".

DID she sincerely want to help to rent the room out, really try hard to promote? When there is potential customer, then just reject them? I cant understand.

Emphasize twice on "rule" and "practice all the while" in two sms. For my perception, is it a revenge? Or it is just my prejudice? Is it because i dun let her to bring back bf after midnight 12am due to the rule of this house? I dunno. Just think maybe tat's really the practice of the house, so i sms aunty to confirm. Hope can get an answer by tomoro morning.

My ex housemate also told me that she is very weird. No mather what request they made, she just reject. To show her power in this house? I am so sory that i didnt feel wat they feel so much before because she just tried to "pick bone in egg" of my housemates.

Now, left she n me in this house and i felt wat my housemate felt at tat time. TT. I told my friends about this and their response just like wat i response to my housemate before because it is not hurt. Which is so normal in life that empathy is so hard to be practiced in life. Just a miss of self-reminder, i forget to feel what other feels alr.

Recently, mom just had a talk with her and she perceive it as a fire burning alr by making it into big fuss to all the people that involved in this house and also ex housemate to know...==" Well, i dun mind to let them know, just they will call me to ask me wat happen and i need to repeat the story everytime. It will only make the story stamped in my memory and i dun want to. ><

I dun feel good. No mather in house or college. My nervous tighten. Wory about she might go into my room because she has all the keys of the rooms. Before that i dun wory because i still have other housemates and we can share our sorrow or defend ourselves together. Now, left she and me, feel so stress even stay in my private place. Wory i might meet burglar also because i just been warned by my nice neighbour that someone live nearby snatched while opening the gate. Also mentally tiring about the project and yet still burden added, and also exam coming soon.

According to wat i studied, constanly worrying will lead to.......many... I need to be aware of this before heading condition of constantly worrying that lasting for two years time. Relax, man.

So, do I still encourage Rou or her friend to move here? Although i have been safe all this while.

Going to explode or has exploded. Anyway, just not going to help me relax even after explosion.