Sunday, November 29, 2009

Eye sight

Can I see sth clearly? Do i really know them?

I think, I think I can see clearly only. In actual, it is just based on the perception. If not, why different people have different perceptions. What is the true nature of the thing? I never know.

And so, the world is bluffing me, or i am bluffing myself? I was just wearing a color spectacle to see the world, although my eyes do not need to wear spectacle. In the end, my eye become seeing things blurry.

Where is the truth? As long as i lost my perception, by taking off the color spectacle? What is the method of it? Do I have the courage to do so?

bicycle

Over the past 2 years, i either walk, cycling or drive to college. Most of the time, it is using the bicycle. It accompany me to enjoy the breeze and life. It also accompany me to pass through the university life. We endure the shining of the sun and the raining together.

However, i need to park it at the petrol station and leave it alone everytime. Hmm...Recently, my bicycle is not lonely alr because there are three new
bicycles parked at the petrol station as well.

One day, the bicycle met the bicycles and we smile to each others. Although we never met each other before, we notice each other.

Such called fate.

Monkeys

That day, i walk back to home.
I saw few malay girls gave foods to the monkeys along the road, they speak Malay to the monkeys.

I just feel funny. Can they really understand it? Hmm...When chinese fed the monkeys, they spoke chinese to the monkey. Can monkey understand it?

And so, i just felt funny. Then i told a friend.

After a few days, my friend told me that, that day she passed by the road and a monkey come to her and stand in front of her. The monkey stand still and seem talking to her. After a while, only the monkey went away.

Haha...my friend dun understand what the monkey try to say.

Such is world. Haha

Psychology study

Psychology means study people.
After 2 years and 3 months of study, do I really know people better?
Frankly speaking, not even know myself.
I would like to say i really dunno myself well.
Although, i can see i have many layers of thought, I know clearly what i am thinking about (the shallow one). For deeper one, i need concentration and clear mind to realize them.

However, study psychology is not focusing on mind. What i study is about feeling, thought and behavior. What i can say is, this is about the environment of me, the influences but not a true me. In the end, still dunno myself.

Why the relapse rate is so high in the treatment of psychology or counseling. To me, the method of psychology is never complete. It never cure the true me and it just treat my environment (thought, feeling and behavior). If need to stop the problem completely, i need a complete method that treat the true me.

Where is the true me? Need to discover by self. No one can tell.

Thinker quiz

The Renaissance ideal

The leading thinkers of the Renaissance were not just experts in their own field. The renaissance scholar was expected to master all branches of knowledge.

With his insatiable desire to know everything, Leonardo da Vinci is often held up as the ideal Renaissance man.

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You are an Existential Thinker
Existential thinkers:

* Like to spend time thinking about philosophical issues such as "What is the meaning of life?"
* Try to see beyond the 'here and now', and understand deeper meanings
* consider moral and ethical implications of problems as well as practical solutions

Like existential thinkers, Leonardo questioned man's role in the universe. Many of his paintings explored the relationship between man and God. Other Existential Thinkers include The Buddha, Gandhi, Plato, Socrates, Martin Luther King

Careers which suit Existential Thinkers include
Philosopher, Religious leader, Head of state, Artist, Writer


so, LT and KS has done this quiz and I try to play as well
Existential thinker. Hmm.... so my thesis topic suit to me very well.
Is my destiny, i think.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

十一月心情

17/11/09
糜烂的泥,车轮脚印践踏着,留下了痕迹,雨过天晴,痕迹消失无影踪,还是那堆泥.

16/11/09
一面黑潭在中,周围环绕着古老的松树,垂下的树枝央印着倒影,重叠又重叠。

15/11/09
苍白的大地,天空蓝白分明。一棵大树从地上竖立着直到空中,如如不动。

14/11/09
暖暖的阳光眯着眼照耀着大地。风儿徐徐吹来,花儿小草迎风摇弋,潺潺流水缓缓流动。

十一月句子

人生是独一无二的设计。

属于自己的,唯有那些留得下痕迹的人事物。

18/11/09
成长是一辈子的功课,没有够了的时候。当觉得够了,是自己看不到那个成长空间的时候。

17/11/09
人生短短几十年,应当享受生命,感受自己。

16/11/09
当不再抗拒,就有了能力怀抱大地。

14/11/09
人生,没有随心所欲,却有随遇而安。

13/11/09
需要关怀不是软弱的代表,是人的其中一部分。

12/11/09
当把眼前的小事情看得很大时,就会让人看不到真正的大事情。这就是遗憾的开始吧!

11/11/09
很多时候的人,一定要走到需要抉择的地步吗?

10/11/09
小小的动作和想法都代表着大大的人格。

9/11/09
只有有用的人才能帮到他人吗?需要帮助的人要的是什么?有用的人吗?

8/11/09
他人的人生不需要由另一人去评定,要的是体谅,谅解,听懂,看懂和接受。

7/11/09
觉得自己很够了是高傲的第一步。

6/11/09
人生没有固定的答案。

5/11/09
人生,不需要太多选择题来框住自己,需要的是清楚自己。

4/11/09
路,是要由勇气和坚定,一步一脚印踏下去的。

3/11/09
抓不住的水,拥有随意的形状。

2/11/09
人生,难免疑惑,难免苦痛,可是这却是明白的第一步。

1/11/09
能屈能伸是一种坚强。

Friday, November 13, 2009

Recently....

It has been almost two months since i last update my blog.

Hmm...in the past, although i was busy, i still can do stuffs in front of the computer. Recently.... I really seldom spend time at home. I tried to write, but hmm...going out and running here and there outside is really tiring. I was experiencing many many things, so I think I need more time to reflect and think. Hehe...So many stories to share and dunno wat to start from. I think i will just post one by one next time.

And so, for the past two months, I have been to 3 camps, finished my second phase training and finish the business subjects. Doing the homeworks for training and assignments are really costing time, energy and effort. However, never regret. I found out what happen for psychologist field in Malaysia. Besides that, I know many great people. Then, I also understand difference segments of theories deeper. When i watch the movie for review of Mr. K, many thoughts ran thro' my mind.

Hmm...So, this is the three years for my U life. In the first year of University life, i know can afford to be busy but will not be so stress. So, I decided to explore everything in the University. Some people told me that, just first year, no need to be so busy and just be relax. Hmm, I didnt accept the advice as i think is not my value. After exploration, is to choose one thing and focus to see something deeper. So, I experienced and learned some skills within second year of University life. Of coz, I paid my price but I also get the things. However, i felt bored suddenly. It seem that nothing in the U can let me explore and experience. Therefore, I am thinking of going outside the U or gain experiences by really practicing the skills. Third year, I know it is stress although might not so busy. I think stress can make people feel more tiring and exhausted than busy. Therefore, I decided to stop organizing anything and just participating the activities. I went for the training and gained experiences. Then, I also enjoy to listen to people experiences and listen to sharing of thoughts and feelings. In addition, it is also a good way to reflect back to myself. Hmm....for me...Is a good choice to be here and learn because i like them and free-style learning is joyful. :)

I like to see people, I like to share the lives and I would like people to be happy to accept themselves or people around them. After all, thoughts, feelings and spirits are the only things that follow people no mather where we are, how old we are and who we are. Hmm...Such is my U life and I quite enjoy about it. I think there is non a stop for me to claim that I have learn enough, to claim that i know who I am, to claim that i am mature enough.

Anyway, for the time being, I can be considered gaining more free time after completing the business subjects and training. Just sooner or later, I will need to start again for third phase training, thesis, psychology subjects and last subject of business subject.

I think I should make use the time to rest and write story. :) Hmm...i think so..

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Old deep-fried breadstick

In this world, there is a kind of people is like this.

Pretending to be someone when they need something. Then, try all the means to get what they want. When the value of this thing finished, they jump to another and spot at another thing they want, without consider others or anything. Quite oily oily.

The reasons and excuses they used are funny sometime, but is useful undoubtedly. Haha...it almost happen in everywhere. Hmm...Watchng it happen is just like watching plot in the movie. Is a survivor skill, i think.

Understand, doesnt means have to fight with it or speak it out. Sometime, a laugh can swept off evrything. Just look at things happen and know lo.

Sometime i hope i dun see, for certain reason, hehe, but most of the time, i am happy to be able to see this. As more able to predict a bit and accept things. Die also know how i die de. Haha...

Such is people ma~~

The reason behind

Her father was a soldier. Therefore everything in the family was discipline. She is not good in studying and she cant even passed the moral exam. Once, she didnt pass her exam, her head was bumped into the wall.

Later, she has become a model. When she went for interview, she cant remember everything in the run-down and fail, although she is good. This destroy her self-esteem. Over many years, even she is a good model, she never went for advertisement interview anymore.

One day, when she talked about this, her friend said:
You good in talking, u noe, there is no problem with you. I think it might because you have reading problem. Next time, you can ask your assistant read aloud the run-down to you. You use listen instead of reading, then you can present well in the advertisement. Hmm...

Oic. unable to study well is not her problem. She did try hard, just that she cant achieve it. I think the truth has untied the knot in her heart. Is a relieve.

Just like the movie shown by Mr. K in the class. The kid has problem to achieve good grade and socialization. Everyone in the world such as teachers, friends, classmate and even parents address the kid as stupid. One day, a teacher went to meet the parents and asked the parent to read the japanese words. When the parents unable to read, the teacher just address them as stupid and refuse to listen any explanation. Finally, the parents understand the problem their child was facing. The kid was not lazy, it's just that the kid has obstacle to read. Their relationship improved.

Hmm...Just feel that the person who capable to ease the tension, anger and sad feeling is... formidable.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Journal of 4 september

For the convenience sake, i have done something i know i shouldnt do. Haha...nvm la, it's no use crying over for spilt milk. Accept the consequences for what i have done la. Hmm...after that, also experiencing what had expected, hmm...as usual la, mentally prepare alr.

I dress myself up for the party, based on my style. ^@^ However, Err...got a bit response from ppl, they seem shocked. Haha....I tot I just looked a bit differences, but it's seem over for them. (OO)a Haha... Might because of not getting use to me like this ba. Ei.....jt hope it was not looked as "not good" in their eyes la. They said like a cowboy, Haiz, lacking of hat and guns. Haha...
Yer.....Everyone dress normally only, but I tot I should dress a bit better for the party lo. Bc my 17th party for secondary friends, most dressed in fashion too, got japan style, got princess style la....haha..It was based on the differences culture within a group ba. M.Y, S.O, S.M, K.S, K.R(birthday girl), L.T, K.J, K, Q.L and me

College psycho people.

COS people

The present I give is just a normal thing. Hmm.. i draw sth, but they said not alike, not like me. TT Hmm...Some said eyes weird, some said mouth weird. After i look closely, I found out that it was bc the position of the nose. haha...rushing product in busy time is like that one ba....

She still prepare food for vegetarian. Haha...although I seldom eat dinner d and old d, cannot eat so much, I still finished my food in plate. Feel full for the whole night, thank you auntie ya. ^^

Chit-chating over the party, college la, people la and blah blah. Sometime i will look at the moon with the only one star in the sky. The rainbow was surrounding the moon. Beautiful. @@ Haha...I had a feeling of having mid-autumn festival.

Played until midnight one. Hmm...fetched some home and when i reached home, tired d...

Journal of 30 August-3 September

It was a busy week. I have finished another assignment about internet.

I have finally found people to rent the room. A good way to practice my marketing and communication skills, bc need to paste fliers and to be middle-person. Frankly speaking, i dun like to be the middle-person, bc a lots of works to do and need to be squeezed bet two people. Sometime, will HEADACHE, sometime need to convey the msg. Har~~~~ Anyway, it's has over d, finally, haha, I have fulliled wat I promise. Yeah!! ^^

It's the new semester. Need to think about the subjects to take and enquire the info regard the crash of timetable. Hope i can complete the course on time. Of coz, there is still a risk of not able to. Nvm, just make my best plan. If really happen, just accept it. After all, I have done my best alr.

My foster family is fine. 3rd foster brother has got a government jobs to manage certain places. 4th foster brother has gone to taiwan from Singapore to study wat he liked. Gambate and good luck!!

It's a bit shock to hear that a friend quit his study. He didnt tell me much, he just said that he dun 1 2 miss the chance to get a good job, bc that job is really wat he like. That is a job in GREY line, can be good, can be not good. It is a challenging job, bc the people he will be facing in the future are not simple people. Hmm...Everyone has their own choice and this is his happiness. Hope he wont forget the motive to choose this job. Wish him the best.

Some friends came back from oversea, have darken, have become more plump and have slim down. From observation, see that some feel better and some feel worse. Can see the smile on her face and can see the confidence on her face. Also can see the effects of reality on them. Haha....That's how people change. It's their experiences and life story. As usual, they went as a group, but met diff people and had diff experience. Hmm...is normal too that I see wat i see now, is because of their past. Ah~ Haha...such is life..

In the past, my energy is better than her, but this time i walked with her, when i panting and sweating already, she still feel nothing. I old d, lose d... TT What a surprise she gave me. Haha...Hmm..Wat i can say is, she really have had a tough job at oversea.

So many changes happen within few months. Haha...no wonder she said she need time to adjust and adapt to all new things. Gambate

Saturday, September 5, 2009

九月心情

1/9/09
窒息感

2/9/09
一切很新鲜

3/9/09
互相扶持的感触。

4/9/09
欣赏带着彩虹光环的月亮。

5/9/09
品茶三口,却只品到最后的悠闲雅致。

6/9/09
迷惘

7/9/09


9/9/09
愉悦

10/9/09
只想弹开

11/9/09
窒息

12/9/09
愉悦

13/9/09
五味杂陈

14/9/09
晕眩

15/9/09
平静

九月句子

1/9/09
在蛹变成蝴蝶之间,是一种不伦不类。

2/9/09
变,是一种化学作用,自己是其中一个成分。

3/9/09
面具是一种保护色,也是一种武器。

4/9/09
用情致深,伤情致深。

5/9/09
了解自己不是谁,却不了解自己是谁。

6/9/09
漂流在海中的帆船,也是一种生活方式。

7/9/09
对死亡的诠释,决定现下面对生活的心态。

9/9/09
眺望着遥远的海,忘了身边的沙滩。

10/9/09
不在意别人把自己放置在何处,只在意自己把自己放置在何处。

11/9/09
觉得自己大彻大悟的人,其实什么都还没懂;发现自己不懂什么的人,才真是懂了的人。

12/9/09
心眼的扩大造就视野的辽阔。

13/9/09
勇于失败的痛让人看得更清楚。

14/9/09
面具掩饰不住身体。

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Journal of yesterday

Finally finished assignment. So many information and so little words, brain was going to explode.

Before going to PS. She asked me to be careful bc it was so dangerous. Yeah...always be, either got bad people or H1N1. Hmm... need to be as usual, life still going on.

Still, so many people in t LRT, as smelly as usual. Haha. In PS, the people are more than usual. I thk bc people are thinking of going home, has holiday on Monday. Another is, got foreign tourists coming here.

McD is still full house. Many people Q up until blocking the door. Every second is full of people Q-ing up. Formidable!!

The moment i reach place to take bus, the bus coming. Woo~~hoo~~, so lucky. The uncle Q before me take out a ticket and wanna to give me. He used cantonese to talk to me, I slow in understand wat he talking about. It's scared me also, I defence immediately. He got angry and said "cheat also not get RM2 from you only la". Hehe... After that, he still gave me t free bus ticket bc he got 2, he even showed me both tickets. So, I take a free trip. ^@^ When I reach my destination, I waved to him and he smiled. Haha..Thank you, Uncle.

So, in the end, I met good people, the world now not only filled with virus and bad people la. ^^ Need to be careful, but no need too extreme...Yeah!! a nice day.