Journal of yesterday
SHe wanted to increase our potential and therefore she design everything like this. Haha...i like her. ^^ Although people felt stress, learning is really all matter to me.
Today, actually alr from problem-coping process to emotional-coping. Felt helplessness and talk to LT to release the distress. However, later, emotional coping change to problem-coping again. Why should I give up? I can do better and I want to learn from every action, but not stopping in one stage. So, i make a decision during the class and will make it into action by tomoro.
She talked a bit about her passionate today. Hmm...and she will make her dream into reality sooner or later. LT and me did want to help but we didnt enquire first for this time. We dun 1 to be distracted by another thought, we need to focus on that assignment at this point of time. Haha...we seem always make similar decision without communication. (six sense?) Taking same module and decide not to ask together without discuss with each other. Hmm...wat kind of feeling is it?
WOrking on assignment with full heart and time today, with the accompanion of cappucino. ^^
Journal of today
I met with her and talked about the project, she agreed. YES!! haha...the project will be further developed sooner or later, I guess. I think she is also a person who are passionate in this stuff and hope that we all can work together to make the quality of the project even better. Learning..learning...happy..happy.. haha..
Later, I found out i forget to get sth very importance from home. Gosh...rush back and went college again, late 2 minutes alr...TT hope that she dun mind. I pray. Muddlehead me. O.o i can drive real fast without being scared. REAL fast and like a road tyrant.
Anyway, dun care d. I have tried all the best. Hehe...relax...take a bath and walk slowly to the main blk. Walking along the way that i familiar with. Using car, I dun care and dun see wat surround me. Using bike, I enjoy the breathes and see and listen wat surrounding me. When I walked, I saw, I listened, I smelt and most importance, I felt.
WHen reach a place I passed by many times, I saw the sunflowers are not facing the sun. Instead, they looked down on ground. So, sunflower also have their time of not facing the sun and not raising their head. HOwever, they still looked beautiful at this point of time.
In the bus, waters dropped on me. At first, I was thinking of bad luck, choosing an uncomfortable seat instead of others. After a few seconds, "at least not the others sit here" ehought came out. Surprisingly for my improvement on positive thinking, which I have been practicing for more than two years alr. Before that, normally I will only having positive thought after something happen or after leaving the place. Now, I was able to think positively on that spot of time and place. Hmm...cannot think that this is enough for me alr because it means stopping, need to continue practicing.
Went to calligraphy, learn something today and get the direction to practice alr.
Hmm...I found out that even the title is wrong d. Thank godness. Hmm.. Nvm, I can make it better. ^^
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Love and Determination
A sharing by friend. Thanks to her.
One day, a son asks his dad "Daddy, would you like to run a marathon with me?" The father says "yes". And they run their first marathon together.
有一天，兒子問爸爸：「爸爸你和我ㄧ起去跑馬拉松，好嗎？」 爸爸說好。
Another time, the son asks his dad again "Daddy, would you like to run a marathon with me? The father says "yes son".
第二次，兒子問爸爸：「爸爸你和我ㄧ起去跑馬拉松，好嗎？」 爸爸說好。
One day, the son asks his father "Daddy, would you run the Ironman with me?" The Ironman is the most difficult triathlon ever (4kms swimming, 180kms bikin, 42km running?)The dad says "yes".
有一天，兒子問爸爸：「爸爸和我ㄧ起去參加鐵人競賽，好嗎？」 鐵人競賽是最困難的比賽，必須游泳四公里、腳踏車180公里、跑步42公里。 爸爸說好，我們去參加。
The Love strengthen the Determination.
Life can be so beautiful and splendid.
Just write it and do it.. to have the power of creating the life path..
One day, a son asks his dad "Daddy, would you like to run a marathon with me?" The father says "yes". And they run their first marathon together.
有一天，兒子問爸爸：「爸爸你和我ㄧ起去跑馬拉松，好嗎？」 爸爸說好。
Another time, the son asks his dad again "Daddy, would you like to run a marathon with me? The father says "yes son".
第二次，兒子問爸爸：「爸爸你和我ㄧ起去跑馬拉松，好嗎？」 爸爸說好。
One day, the son asks his father "Daddy, would you run the Ironman with me?" The Ironman is the most difficult triathlon ever (4kms swimming, 180kms bikin, 42km running?)The dad says "yes".
有一天，兒子問爸爸：「爸爸和我ㄧ起去參加鐵人競賽，好嗎？」 鐵人競賽是最困難的比賽，必須游泳四公里、腳踏車180公里、跑步42公里。 爸爸說好，我們去參加。
The Love strengthen the Determination.
Life can be so beautiful and splendid.
Just write it and do it.. to have the power of creating the life path..
Journal of 2 days
Journal of yesterday
Skipped the class, coz i know they get student to explain the meaning, instead of lecturer. So, I choose to do my assignment. Then, went to Dr. H class. hmm...still very empowering, very challenging, but hope not too much...It is good to learn, I like this way. It let me understand the world in this field and give me clearer picture. Can have a better prepare. Hope so...Yeap, i am moving forward...i think...
Home. Addressed to both assignments at the same time. One is finalizing by waiting for their final decision on everything. One is very-hard-to-do assignment. While doing hard assignment while waiting. So, quite ok...but really hard...TT
Journal of today
Today, presentation in the morning. Quite a nervous period, hmm...but i have prepare all my best alr. This time, I practice many times. Although the scene was blank, I can still speak a bit fluently. Thks godness. Hehe...the tecnique work. It is good to see their respond and see them feel. Besides, it's good to feel that the presentation quite profesional. Got warming, got evidences, got thinking power, got suggestion. Thks to the team. Hmm... after presentation, i still feel nervous, not for the presentation anymore, but the another very hard to do assignment. ><
Ei....how to communicate better leh...Err....they dun get wat i means. So, i tried to explain more about the things. We need to have a common goal. Under that, the way we do stuff can be differences and anything we like. Just tat, we really need to correspond to our common goal and we need to really understand wat our common goal means.
That's why the discussion is very importance. It is to have a common goal but not to discuss the way we do stuff. I think nobody like to be interfered and also nobody like to interfere others. That's the basic concept i tried to explain. Hmm...hope that they can get wat i mean. Hope so...Hmm..It is really importance to have a common goal, if not, everything just like individual works, not a group work.
Har....
Then, we all incharge each difference part. There are still opening space for suggestions. Whether the person-in-charge want to accept the suggestion or modified it by adding it to own stuff, it is own decision le. No one can force, but can only try to explain.
Overall, just that, we accept to have a basic trend like that. Then, as for the contents, we all can have personaly liking, own way to do stuff. Hoo...
Hmm...Then, got meeting. Today, quite many things to discuss. From their thought, i roughly know thingy. Hmm..I guess...Now, it's time to organize things and be more systematic. We will do well gei....Hmm...Then, all will be a good start for them le. What they need, most will have. What the next step should be....hehe...cannot reveal...for the time being...
Suddenly thought of a past of mine. She was a friend that has so many interesting characteristic when i was still in a primary school. However, she like to joke and play a trick on people. Hmm....That batch of fds are really significant in my life. So, sudden realized that it bring such a big impact for me. Sudden understand WHY!! So called "Past experiences shaped me".
Home....time to assignmenting....Really high cortisol level, really stress to face this....anyway, wat can I do? Hmm...Just do the best.
Skipped the class, coz i know they get student to explain the meaning, instead of lecturer. So, I choose to do my assignment. Then, went to Dr. H class. hmm...still very empowering, very challenging, but hope not too much...It is good to learn, I like this way. It let me understand the world in this field and give me clearer picture. Can have a better prepare. Hope so...Yeap, i am moving forward...i think...
Home. Addressed to both assignments at the same time. One is finalizing by waiting for their final decision on everything. One is very-hard-to-do assignment. While doing hard assignment while waiting. So, quite ok...but really hard...TT
Journal of today
Today, presentation in the morning. Quite a nervous period, hmm...but i have prepare all my best alr. This time, I practice many times. Although the scene was blank, I can still speak a bit fluently. Thks godness. Hehe...the tecnique work. It is good to see their respond and see them feel. Besides, it's good to feel that the presentation quite profesional. Got warming, got evidences, got thinking power, got suggestion. Thks to the team. Hmm... after presentation, i still feel nervous, not for the presentation anymore, but the another very hard to do assignment. ><
Ei....how to communicate better leh...Err....they dun get wat i means. So, i tried to explain more about the things. We need to have a common goal. Under that, the way we do stuff can be differences and anything we like. Just tat, we really need to correspond to our common goal and we need to really understand wat our common goal means.
That's why the discussion is very importance. It is to have a common goal but not to discuss the way we do stuff. I think nobody like to be interfered and also nobody like to interfere others. That's the basic concept i tried to explain. Hmm...hope that they can get wat i mean. Hope so...Hmm..It is really importance to have a common goal, if not, everything just like individual works, not a group work.
Har....
Then, we all incharge each difference part. There are still opening space for suggestions. Whether the person-in-charge want to accept the suggestion or modified it by adding it to own stuff, it is own decision le. No one can force, but can only try to explain.
Overall, just that, we accept to have a basic trend like that. Then, as for the contents, we all can have personaly liking, own way to do stuff. Hoo...
Hmm...Then, got meeting. Today, quite many things to discuss. From their thought, i roughly know thingy. Hmm..I guess...Now, it's time to organize things and be more systematic. We will do well gei....Hmm...Then, all will be a good start for them le. What they need, most will have. What the next step should be....hehe...cannot reveal...for the time being...
Suddenly thought of a past of mine. She was a friend that has so many interesting characteristic when i was still in a primary school. However, she like to joke and play a trick on people. Hmm....That batch of fds are really significant in my life. So, sudden realized that it bring such a big impact for me. Sudden understand WHY!! So called "Past experiences shaped me".
Home....time to assignmenting....Really high cortisol level, really stress to face this....anyway, wat can I do? Hmm...Just do the best.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Journal of 2 days
Journal of yesterday
I drove to there and drove back. Had an undescribable feeling for there. It's time to say goodbye, I think. From the start until now, in a conclusion, it is a process. Creating feeling, thought, power and so many thing, everything just will get over.
As she said, be patient, changing is accumulated bits by bits. It doesnt mather much for me le, just ease their life is a happiness for me, hope for them as well.
Chat with her a lots in the car. There are quite a numbers of similarity between us, I should say. Haha...Hmm...she tried to feedback about me, it's good to hear that.
After that, put her down to go back home, and pick another her to training immediately. The conversations are totally differences for morning and afternoon. Haha...Differences people, differences story and differences way of expressing.
In the training, I listened to some of her story and trying to understand how she viewed her family. In my
turn to talk, but i havent say much, she alr made her judgement and conclusion, so i continue listen. Hmm....In another group, I become the one who talk much because is a bit interesting for him? I reveal quite a lots of my background. It does not help much, I do not feel much, just speak...
I am really not a person who like to talk. When you talk, i can feel your happiness. When i talk, I can feel the weird feeling after that...Havent figure out why. Might be caused by the operant conditioning or classical conditioning in the past.
Today, i also gave a lots suggestion. There is no programme is not good de, for me. Most of the time, just lacking of something or some element. Just add in that, the effect of the programme can be differece and powerful.
Home. Tired. @@...Still assignment...
Journal of today
Saw the sms and not surprising, quite expected will be like that. Just at least they have started to do, hope so..I cant control the other, I can control myself, just do extra more on my parts ba....
Finally, my part in this assignment finished. Still got chapter for study group to go and another assignment.
Hmm...tomoro, it's post-mortem. It is another end and another start again. They will continue and I should go to another way alr. It is time to turn to other direction.
It is hard to pick up, for me. Hope that, it is not hard to put down. From past experiences, always not hard to put down, hope this time as well.
Hmm...gambateh should be the last words.
I drove to there and drove back. Had an undescribable feeling for there. It's time to say goodbye, I think. From the start until now, in a conclusion, it is a process. Creating feeling, thought, power and so many thing, everything just will get over.
As she said, be patient, changing is accumulated bits by bits. It doesnt mather much for me le, just ease their life is a happiness for me, hope for them as well.
Chat with her a lots in the car. There are quite a numbers of similarity between us, I should say. Haha...Hmm...she tried to feedback about me, it's good to hear that.
After that, put her down to go back home, and pick another her to training immediately. The conversations are totally differences for morning and afternoon. Haha...Differences people, differences story and differences way of expressing.
In the training, I listened to some of her story and trying to understand how she viewed her family. In my
turn to talk, but i havent say much, she alr made her judgement and conclusion, so i continue listen. Hmm....In another group, I become the one who talk much because is a bit interesting for him? I reveal quite a lots of my background. It does not help much, I do not feel much, just speak...
I am really not a person who like to talk. When you talk, i can feel your happiness. When i talk, I can feel the weird feeling after that...Havent figure out why. Might be caused by the operant conditioning or classical conditioning in the past.
Today, i also gave a lots suggestion. There is no programme is not good de, for me. Most of the time, just lacking of something or some element. Just add in that, the effect of the programme can be differece and powerful.
Home. Tired. @@...Still assignment...
Journal of today
Saw the sms and not surprising, quite expected will be like that. Just at least they have started to do, hope so..I cant control the other, I can control myself, just do extra more on my parts ba....
Finally, my part in this assignment finished. Still got chapter for study group to go and another assignment.
Hmm...tomoro, it's post-mortem. It is another end and another start again. They will continue and I should go to another way alr. It is time to turn to other direction.
It is hard to pick up, for me. Hope that, it is not hard to put down. From past experiences, always not hard to put down, hope this time as well.
Hmm...gambateh should be the last words.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Journal of 3 days
Journal of Wednesday
A tired busy day.
9.30-12.00 class
12-2 meeting
2-5 class
5-7 swim
7-9 discussion
She was not moving, yet she felt sad. What she has promised, she did not do. Everytime, need to use one strength to push, then only one step move. If stop, nothing will be done as usual, or chin chin chai chai things came out. I have lost the patients and strength for the time being. So, everything was not moving. That's the most biggest differences in value bwt us. Being serius is good or bad, I decide.
I tot the later class will end in 4pm, but lecturer insist on 5pm. Although, he will compensate by next week, the time i need is today, not next week. Hmm...attend his class impatiently and tiredly. In the class, discuss about r/s. She was a person who has strong thought and strong value. So, I valued ego of friend and then found out that always tiring self. Maybe I will change not to be, to be another...hmm..havent decided. Or might cant change also, maybe just enhance the skill and modified something.
Discussion is a little progress today, but glad that we all know wat to do as first step.
Refine the assignment as there are quite a numbers of part, i am not quite satisfied. So happy that this time got so many time for me to proofread. ^^After that, study for study group's chapter tomoro...urgh..unable to finish.
Journal of yesterday
Morning class, learn a lots of thing. She taught us some skills, might be called as the art of speaking. Hmm...it is really not easy to learn. Although i still dun hav quick wit and response, I will keep praticing de. Do my best.
Later, study group. She was improving her way of expressing ideas alr, I still not much. Hmm...
Thks godness i asked her about the assignment. So the word limits is not tat little la...Haiyo...thks godness, I havent cut. If not, I mah sek dai...hoo...^^lucky me.
She called and asked about some situation of that department. Then, she talked about her situations now. I thinked she analyse in a good way and in details, also apply good strategy and attitude now. Nice job!!! Just try more on emotion, deal with the easier anxiety moment. :D...No wory le, gambateh...
Journal of today
Early class, nothing much went into head. Just like that. Gambateh for the camp in JB. Hope everything fine, impactful and success. Truly speaking, i dun really hold big hope...hmm...
I was eating with K. She asked me some questions and she answer me back after my answer. I am kinda of understanding wat her meaning of painful of thoughts. Hmm....not sure whether correct. Maybe will find one day to write down but definitely not today. Like freedom, like to be independance, and somehow i felt a bit sad for her healthy condition, she might be restricted by that. Hmm...
Later tutorial, we need to open an company. I sense sth wrong about our opponent. I tried to find out but i cant on that spot of time. After that, only i figure out wat it is. So, putting them in a food company is a waste of their talents. I thinked they are more suituible to open media sort of company, so that they can make full use of their talents. Artist, DJ, Designer, Analytical person....
Then, my turn, I need to speak my backgroup based on GLURP. Maybe I like strategies and like to play chess. Just tell her that only and tutor said "practitioner". OMG..power of psychology, I just reveal a bit of myself, she know wat type I am in alr..
Hmm...carry big bag and home...
Tomoro will be a busy day, another camp and training. Sunday morning might go to the place i would like to go and then afternoon is finalize things. My time....
A tired busy day.
9.30-12.00 class
12-2 meeting
2-5 class
5-7 swim
7-9 discussion
She was not moving, yet she felt sad. What she has promised, she did not do. Everytime, need to use one strength to push, then only one step move. If stop, nothing will be done as usual, or chin chin chai chai things came out. I have lost the patients and strength for the time being. So, everything was not moving. That's the most biggest differences in value bwt us. Being serius is good or bad, I decide.
I tot the later class will end in 4pm, but lecturer insist on 5pm. Although, he will compensate by next week, the time i need is today, not next week. Hmm...attend his class impatiently and tiredly. In the class, discuss about r/s. She was a person who has strong thought and strong value. So, I valued ego of friend and then found out that always tiring self. Maybe I will change not to be, to be another...hmm..havent decided. Or might cant change also, maybe just enhance the skill and modified something.
Discussion is a little progress today, but glad that we all know wat to do as first step.
Refine the assignment as there are quite a numbers of part, i am not quite satisfied. So happy that this time got so many time for me to proofread. ^^After that, study for study group's chapter tomoro...urgh..unable to finish.
Journal of yesterday
Morning class, learn a lots of thing. She taught us some skills, might be called as the art of speaking. Hmm...it is really not easy to learn. Although i still dun hav quick wit and response, I will keep praticing de. Do my best.
Later, study group. She was improving her way of expressing ideas alr, I still not much. Hmm...
Thks godness i asked her about the assignment. So the word limits is not tat little la...Haiyo...thks godness, I havent cut. If not, I mah sek dai...hoo...^^lucky me.
She called and asked about some situation of that department. Then, she talked about her situations now. I thinked she analyse in a good way and in details, also apply good strategy and attitude now. Nice job!!! Just try more on emotion, deal with the easier anxiety moment. :D...No wory le, gambateh...
Journal of today
Early class, nothing much went into head. Just like that. Gambateh for the camp in JB. Hope everything fine, impactful and success. Truly speaking, i dun really hold big hope...hmm...
I was eating with K. She asked me some questions and she answer me back after my answer. I am kinda of understanding wat her meaning of painful of thoughts. Hmm....not sure whether correct. Maybe will find one day to write down but definitely not today. Like freedom, like to be independance, and somehow i felt a bit sad for her healthy condition, she might be restricted by that. Hmm...
Later tutorial, we need to open an company. I sense sth wrong about our opponent. I tried to find out but i cant on that spot of time. After that, only i figure out wat it is. So, putting them in a food company is a waste of their talents. I thinked they are more suituible to open media sort of company, so that they can make full use of their talents. Artist, DJ, Designer, Analytical person....
Then, my turn, I need to speak my backgroup based on GLURP. Maybe I like strategies and like to play chess. Just tell her that only and tutor said "practitioner". OMG..power of psychology, I just reveal a bit of myself, she know wat type I am in alr..
Hmm...carry big bag and home...
Tomoro will be a busy day, another camp and training. Sunday morning might go to the place i would like to go and then afternoon is finalize things. My time....
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Journal of 2 days
Journal of Yesterday
Early in the morning, brain energy used in study group.
She smsed and asked about opinion about career choice. Hmm...i think it's all depend on her, whether she would like to do it, want to do it and feel happy about it. So, she made her decision. There are so many people around her have their own opinion. Hmm, I thinked can take their opinion into account, but still, her life is hers. The consequences after the decision made also are for her to bear, so, make own decision based on own best interests is the best for her ba. Recently, I thinked she must have lots stress (activities, accidents, desicion making.....) Hmm...gambate nei...
Later, is bout the activity stuff. Start from noon until evening, they discussed. At bout evening, they finally make their decision. Good then...But i think the communication is long n weary. This is not a good system which will cause misunderstanding and time consumed. The chain is too long d. Hoo...
Brain exhausted when home. @@
Journal of today
Early class, about family. I think has more about discussion rather than information. What I learned is about some critique about the text book. Hmm..
Later class, 2 presentations in one go. They are really good and I get to know many thing. Hmm....the standard of them and us are really different. The reason is quite obvious and it is no use to find out more alr. This class is a good explore for me.^^
She helped to ask about the thingy, she is brave. Haha...Hope that everything is fine.
She still havent sent me the thing....hmm...Is there anything happen? Hope fine...
Early in the morning, brain energy used in study group.
She smsed and asked about opinion about career choice. Hmm...i think it's all depend on her, whether she would like to do it, want to do it and feel happy about it. So, she made her decision. There are so many people around her have their own opinion. Hmm, I thinked can take their opinion into account, but still, her life is hers. The consequences after the decision made also are for her to bear, so, make own decision based on own best interests is the best for her ba. Recently, I thinked she must have lots stress (activities, accidents, desicion making.....) Hmm...gambate nei...
Later, is bout the activity stuff. Start from noon until evening, they discussed. At bout evening, they finally make their decision. Good then...But i think the communication is long n weary. This is not a good system which will cause misunderstanding and time consumed. The chain is too long d. Hoo...
Brain exhausted when home. @@
Journal of today
Early class, about family. I think has more about discussion rather than information. What I learned is about some critique about the text book. Hmm..
Later class, 2 presentations in one go. They are really good and I get to know many thing. Hmm....the standard of them and us are really different. The reason is quite obvious and it is no use to find out more alr. This class is a good explore for me.^^
She helped to ask about the thingy, she is brave. Haha...Hope that everything is fine.
She still havent sent me the thing....hmm...Is there anything happen? Hope fine...
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Journal of 3 days
Journal of Friday
Early in the morning, she told about the things she faced recently. Hmm...so many bad things happen, she must be feeling bad. Gambate nei, everything will over sooner or later de.
Today, there are two differences people said same words to me in lecture and tutorial. Haha...such an coincidence.. *Happy*
Today's study group is quite ok and we had our feast after the hard work. So nice ^^ Then after class, bus came immediately, :D, lucky me. I went to learn calligraphy and my heavy bag really help me to loose weight...==" Had my lunch at 4.30pm and place where cars and buses passed by.
So, the bright day and the night day here are really differences. All the stalls, shops and people here are differences. Today, quite special, in briight day, I saw someone being caught by the police outside the bank. In night, I saw "white powder" people. Hmm...
I stayed at the McD before class. Saw that "sale men" like to ask for donation here and there are some people will always be here. Me, also being always seen by them.
Journal of saturday
Today, a non-stop day. Went for pre-run and shared the concept of the activity. She asked me to shared the experiences, but i think many here got more experiences than I have. So, I really cut the long story short.
What I can say is changing need money and time. It is not a one-day thingy, it is accumulated bits by bits. Try to give them a choice instead of leaving them no choice. Just hope that it is an impact for the children and also for the participants. Every batches will have their unique own special experiences and memories which the other batched cannot surpass.
The song of the passed batch still preserved, she might feel touched when know that. Haha. This time, everything are also quite well-prepared. I think leaders might can learned to be lubricant. :)
Later, went for training. It was impactful, it gave direction and affirmed us. The way he conduct is good and found out that the most importance criteria is really "do" rather than "talk only". Have to be someone who is capable to do but not only know how to reasoning.
When we dun have experiences, no mather how much knowledge we have or how much theory we know, they are just "words". It is because there are many things "we know" alr.
It is a mather of whether we can "achieve" it or not? How to achieve it? And why need to achieve it? After someone tried to achieved it, then only they can explain the real meaning behind the words due to own experiences. Hmm...
Went to restaurant to have dinner. ^^ Today, tired d when home.
Journal of Sunday
Just an assignment day. For this semester, I have finished my part in two assignment until now, there are still some last follow-on and two more heavy assignments to go. @@ Gambate nei...
Early in the morning, she told about the things she faced recently. Hmm...so many bad things happen, she must be feeling bad. Gambate nei, everything will over sooner or later de.
Today, there are two differences people said same words to me in lecture and tutorial. Haha...such an coincidence.. *Happy*
Today's study group is quite ok and we had our feast after the hard work. So nice ^^ Then after class, bus came immediately, :D, lucky me. I went to learn calligraphy and my heavy bag really help me to loose weight...==" Had my lunch at 4.30pm and place where cars and buses passed by.
So, the bright day and the night day here are really differences. All the stalls, shops and people here are differences. Today, quite special, in briight day, I saw someone being caught by the police outside the bank. In night, I saw "white powder" people. Hmm...
I stayed at the McD before class. Saw that "sale men" like to ask for donation here and there are some people will always be here. Me, also being always seen by them.
Journal of saturday
Today, a non-stop day. Went for pre-run and shared the concept of the activity. She asked me to shared the experiences, but i think many here got more experiences than I have. So, I really cut the long story short.
What I can say is changing need money and time. It is not a one-day thingy, it is accumulated bits by bits. Try to give them a choice instead of leaving them no choice. Just hope that it is an impact for the children and also for the participants. Every batches will have their unique own special experiences and memories which the other batched cannot surpass.
The song of the passed batch still preserved, she might feel touched when know that. Haha. This time, everything are also quite well-prepared. I think leaders might can learned to be lubricant. :)
Later, went for training. It was impactful, it gave direction and affirmed us. The way he conduct is good and found out that the most importance criteria is really "do" rather than "talk only". Have to be someone who is capable to do but not only know how to reasoning.
When we dun have experiences, no mather how much knowledge we have or how much theory we know, they are just "words". It is because there are many things "we know" alr.
It is a mather of whether we can "achieve" it or not? How to achieve it? And why need to achieve it? After someone tried to achieved it, then only they can explain the real meaning behind the words due to own experiences. Hmm...
Went to restaurant to have dinner. ^^ Today, tired d when home.
Journal of Sunday
Just an assignment day. For this semester, I have finished my part in two assignment until now, there are still some last follow-on and two more heavy assignments to go. @@ Gambate nei...
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Tell me why
In my dream children sing a song of love for every boy and girl
The sky is blue and fields are green and laughter is the language of the world
Then I wake and all I see is a world full of people in need
Tell me why does it have to be like this?
Tell me why is there something I have missed?
Tell me why cos I don't understand.
When so many need somebody we don't give a helping hand.
Tell me why? Everyday I ask myself what will I have to do to be a man?
Do I have to stand and fight to prove to everybody who I am?
Is that what my life is for to waste in a world full of war?
Tell me why (why) does it have to be like this?
Tell me why (why) is there something I have missed?
Tell me why (why) cos I don't understand.
When so many need somebody
we don't give a helping hand.
Tell me why?
(children) tell me why? (declan) tell me why?
(children) tell me why? (declan) tell me why?
(together) just tell me why, why, why?
Tell me why (why) does it have to be like this?
Tell me why (why) is there something I have missed?
Tell me why (why) cos I don't understand.
When so many need somebody we don't give a helping hand.
Tell me why (why,why,does the tiger run)
Tell me why (why why do we shoot the gun)
Tell me why (why,why do we never learn)
Can someone tell us why we let the forest burn?
(why,why do we say we care)
Tell me why (why,why do we stand and stare)
Tell me why (why,why do the dolphins cry)
Can some one tell us why we let the ocean die ?
(why,why if we're all the same)
tell me why (why,why do we pass the blame)
tell me why (why,why does it never end)
can some one tell us why we cannot just be friends?
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Sooner or later
A letter from 2070
CHINESE
ENGLISH
NASA report--> in....2012....
No mather wat happen in the future because of global warming, all are not a good things. Try to do something while complaining the heat and when feeling the dry throat. The time is near....
CHINESE
ENGLISH
NASA report--> in....2012....
No mather wat happen in the future because of global warming, all are not a good things. Try to do something while complaining the heat and when feeling the dry throat. The time is near....
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Journal of three days
Journal of Monday
A busy day from Morning to Evening.
Studying in great progress and practice language at the same time. Make full use of the chance to learn in maximum way. The chances to practice, the chances to detact the problem are provided. hmm...I thinked the template is there, whether the speed of improvement is great or slow, is depend on own attitude. Just depend on whether we will grab the chance and make full use of it only. Still using this philosophy to tell myself "I cant control the others, i can only control myself."
Immediately after study, need to conduct the interview session. It is another great experiences. Hmm...I choose the question to ask based on their experiences and a little known personality.
There was one question I am quite interested with. It is "if you were given RM10 for each children, what would you buy for them? Why?" Some based on own perception, some based on their need. However, my answer is to combine all the RM10 to do a programme based on their need. A lots of things can be done by teaching them how to fish, but not to give them fishes. Hmm..
Other than that, there was a person inspiring me a lot and I am so excited to hear what she has said about her past experiences. It has proven that one impact bring future change. It sweep off all of the hardwork alr. Hmm...One is enough. *Touched*
Journal of Tuesday
Learnt a lots today and thinking stimulated. Hmm...it seem has proven that all the things need to start from them...Indeed, changes is not in one day, but is accumulated bits by bits.
Today, although not a big deal to others, I felt I have said sth i should not say. Hmm...later, I saw sth I should not see...
Nvm la....all has passed. Cant see means cant see.
Journal of today
Morning class, brain storming with her. haha...with sufficient rest, the response and understand are really differences.
Later, I went to eat lunch, OMG, she was from there also. If she didnt ask me, we wouldnt know it. That is a place that seldom people know. Hmm..., toward there, I have the same feeling with her. I....Haiz..she still go there often, as for me, didnt go there for almost few years d, felt guilty. Maybe we will go there together sooner or later, hmm..., sooner or later. OMG, Incredible!!! HAHAHA
Later class, thinking stimulated, hmm..., a lots of things reminded. I know why and I know that. Anyway, passed things should only be reminders only, what matter most is only now.
Assignments discussed and meeting is in a great progress. Haha...sth very coincidence happen also. I met her in Johor trip, in tutorial, in interview....wow...we are in a small world thou, but still such a small city ya...haha
So, no swimming for today. TT and this week is a real busy week...
A busy day from Morning to Evening.
Studying in great progress and practice language at the same time. Make full use of the chance to learn in maximum way. The chances to practice, the chances to detact the problem are provided. hmm...I thinked the template is there, whether the speed of improvement is great or slow, is depend on own attitude. Just depend on whether we will grab the chance and make full use of it only. Still using this philosophy to tell myself "I cant control the others, i can only control myself."
Immediately after study, need to conduct the interview session. It is another great experiences. Hmm...I choose the question to ask based on their experiences and a little known personality.
There was one question I am quite interested with. It is "if you were given RM10 for each children, what would you buy for them? Why?" Some based on own perception, some based on their need. However, my answer is to combine all the RM10 to do a programme based on their need. A lots of things can be done by teaching them how to fish, but not to give them fishes. Hmm..
Other than that, there was a person inspiring me a lot and I am so excited to hear what she has said about her past experiences. It has proven that one impact bring future change. It sweep off all of the hardwork alr. Hmm...One is enough. *Touched*
Journal of Tuesday
Learnt a lots today and thinking stimulated. Hmm...it seem has proven that all the things need to start from them...Indeed, changes is not in one day, but is accumulated bits by bits.
Today, although not a big deal to others, I felt I have said sth i should not say. Hmm...later, I saw sth I should not see...
Nvm la....all has passed. Cant see means cant see.
Journal of today
Morning class, brain storming with her. haha...with sufficient rest, the response and understand are really differences.
Later, I went to eat lunch, OMG, she was from there also. If she didnt ask me, we wouldnt know it. That is a place that seldom people know. Hmm..., toward there, I have the same feeling with her. I....Haiz..she still go there often, as for me, didnt go there for almost few years d, felt guilty. Maybe we will go there together sooner or later, hmm..., sooner or later. OMG, Incredible!!! HAHAHA
Later class, thinking stimulated, hmm..., a lots of things reminded. I know why and I know that. Anyway, passed things should only be reminders only, what matter most is only now.
Assignments discussed and meeting is in a great progress. Haha...sth very coincidence happen also. I met her in Johor trip, in tutorial, in interview....wow...we are in a small world thou, but still such a small city ya...haha
So, no swimming for today. TT and this week is a real busy week...
六月心情记载
27/6/09
庆幸. 优雅
26/6/09
紧张. 轻松，享受 ^^
25/6/09
很紧张， 很压力。 “救命” ><
24/6/09
很紧张， 很压力。 “救命” ><
23/6/09
紧张。 压力。
22/6/09
愉悦。 “终于”
21/6/09
期待。 疲惫
20/6/09
共鸣感。如流水般。
19/6/09
愉悦。 坦荡荡。
18/6/09
学习的兴奋。 压力。
17/6/09
感恩。 明白。
16/6/09
羡慕。 伤感。
15/6/09
愉悦。 不轻松，不沉重。
14/6/09
愉悦。 时间不够用。
13/6/09
愉悦。 好快乐。
12/6/09
幸福
11/6/09
心悸。 一杯茶香，清清幽幽。
10/6/09
难以言喻，不可思议的知遇之感。 依然心痛。
9/6/09
心痛，脑麻痹，涟漪四起。
庆幸. 优雅
26/6/09
紧张. 轻松，享受 ^^
25/6/09
很紧张， 很压力。 “救命” ><
24/6/09
很紧张， 很压力。 “救命” ><
23/6/09
紧张。 压力。
22/6/09
愉悦。 “终于”
21/6/09
期待。 疲惫
20/6/09
共鸣感。如流水般。
19/6/09
愉悦。 坦荡荡。
18/6/09
学习的兴奋。 压力。
17/6/09
感恩。 明白。
16/6/09
羡慕。 伤感。
15/6/09
愉悦。 不轻松，不沉重。
14/6/09
愉悦。 时间不够用。
13/6/09
愉悦。 好快乐。
12/6/09
幸福
11/6/09
心悸。 一杯茶香，清清幽幽。
10/6/09
难以言喻，不可思议的知遇之感。 依然心痛。
9/6/09
心痛，脑麻痹，涟漪四起。
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Journal of the day
It is more powerful than i am expected by applying this approach and can really felt the motivation to do so...Maybe that's so called "knowledge is power"..OMG... Hope this approach apply to all also, to make it a success. Haha
She felt helplessness to face philosophy thinking, hmm..., I thinked add an element can become helpful to face it. I thinked there is a critical point for this, which CAN means all can, and CANNOT means havent broken thro' and all cannot.
Hmmm...so, we discussed "natural set a limit" and she said it is a sad thing. Hmm.. forsake helplessness and do wat we can control, nurture can help it to reach its full potential, isnt it? This is wat human can do, try the best to do. :)
Many things are overlapping and i need to make a choice. So sory for resigning the post at this last minutes. It is because the value of others are higher than this. Hmm...still...hope you all can success. Success means make use of the last chance to reach the best of the four objectives. Leader, depend on you le, whether to let it be or make a change...
She said me is a "rare" among her friend. Hmm...I didnt mean too but that's wat i am. I thinked since i chose to be like tat, i need to accept all the outcome no mather good or bad. Since I accept, I thinked or hoped the outcome wont be considered as suffering for me. All the things exist in this world has its good and bad. Nothing can escape this system. Hmm...Me, included as existed in this world. I bring effects of good and bad to my surrounding. Instead of blaming or troubled by the bad effect, y not choose to accept it and minimize it?
She said me "rare" because of wat I described about her. Haha...Believe me, that's nothing special, just observe the details and then can see the whole picture, isnt it? I thinked everyone can do so. Hmm...Again, bringing awareness out make people felt uncomfortable, so, should I still do so. Maybe the problem has never been "should I do so", because of "that's me", always the effect I caused. The question should be "should I change"? Why should I?
Mr. Gary's story about awareness came to my mind again. He described it as let a tumor remain unawared of until it become a cancer, or aware of it and do sth while can. He said when a kampung person went to city, they discover more things than when they remain in the kampung.
I thinked what we can do is only let them know there is a city and help them reach to the city, but not to make a decision for them. It is their choice to choose whether to remain in the kampung or go to the city. I think even when they choose to remain in the kampung, they are difference alr as they know there is a city.
So, my conclusion at this point of time is, whether bringing awareness out is good or bad, THEY CHOOSE...
She asked "what would you do if people all around you are sad". She said "I would choose to be happy". Hmm...What would I do? I would try to be their happy source. It's hard though as there are a lots of thing need to be achieved before able to do so, and.... I havent success.
Time to sleep. @@ but ^^
She felt helplessness to face philosophy thinking, hmm..., I thinked add an element can become helpful to face it. I thinked there is a critical point for this, which CAN means all can, and CANNOT means havent broken thro' and all cannot.
Hmmm...so, we discussed "natural set a limit" and she said it is a sad thing. Hmm.. forsake helplessness and do wat we can control, nurture can help it to reach its full potential, isnt it? This is wat human can do, try the best to do. :)
Many things are overlapping and i need to make a choice. So sory for resigning the post at this last minutes. It is because the value of others are higher than this. Hmm...still...hope you all can success. Success means make use of the last chance to reach the best of the four objectives. Leader, depend on you le, whether to let it be or make a change...
She said me is a "rare" among her friend. Hmm...I didnt mean too but that's wat i am. I thinked since i chose to be like tat, i need to accept all the outcome no mather good or bad. Since I accept, I thinked or hoped the outcome wont be considered as suffering for me. All the things exist in this world has its good and bad. Nothing can escape this system. Hmm...Me, included as existed in this world. I bring effects of good and bad to my surrounding. Instead of blaming or troubled by the bad effect, y not choose to accept it and minimize it?
She said me "rare" because of wat I described about her. Haha...Believe me, that's nothing special, just observe the details and then can see the whole picture, isnt it? I thinked everyone can do so. Hmm...Again, bringing awareness out make people felt uncomfortable, so, should I still do so. Maybe the problem has never been "should I do so", because of "that's me", always the effect I caused. The question should be "should I change"? Why should I?
Mr. Gary's story about awareness came to my mind again. He described it as let a tumor remain unawared of until it become a cancer, or aware of it and do sth while can. He said when a kampung person went to city, they discover more things than when they remain in the kampung.
I thinked what we can do is only let them know there is a city and help them reach to the city, but not to make a decision for them. It is their choice to choose whether to remain in the kampung or go to the city. I think even when they choose to remain in the kampung, they are difference alr as they know there is a city.
So, my conclusion at this point of time is, whether bringing awareness out is good or bad, THEY CHOOSE...
She asked "what would you do if people all around you are sad". She said "I would choose to be happy". Hmm...What would I do? I would try to be their happy source. It's hard though as there are a lots of thing need to be achieved before able to do so, and.... I havent success.
Time to sleep. @@ but ^^
Journal of past 4 days
On my birthday, father came for brother's sake and also for my car's sake. Haha...then we went lunch together. Mother called and gave me a gift. :D Her gift is like the water pour on the burning fire, that so suitable for my need. Haha..thank you, mom. Hmm...After 21st, actually i promised to myself not to ask more things from them alr. Yeah...should be, since 21st means a grown person with freedom. If want to get freedom, should also be independent.
Class on the tuesday discussed about body image. I think I am satisfied. It is because I tried fat, I tried thin and now I felt I am in moderate. In so called "fat mode", i know wat the discrimination is like. In so called "Thin" mode, i felt no energy and weak. So, the stage now, is the best for me and so i satisfied.
Hmm..., if that is the reason that cause our world has these prejudice and the "thing" is considered as so powerful, y not use back t "thing" to clear the prejudice also? Time changed, things change, people changes...isnt it? The nurture thingy can cause changing.
The so called "beautiful" is natural or created? DUn know... However, I think natural thing is always beautiful which the human made things can never surpass. WHen we havent fully understood about natural, there are always many surprises surrounding us which can be so unpredictable.
Hmm....Listen to the bird singing and water sound, watching the flower blooming and tree dancing. The most unique thing is that, they will never be the same but they are actually the same, they changed every day and surprising me every day...HAHA... Maybe the hardest thing is, listen to the sound inside our heart.
So, exam were coming soon and most of the time of these few days were used to study.
Journal of yesterday
After exam, home to study and then exam again. After all midterms finished, went for swim...arr....nice whether today. so nice, ^^ If there was a cup of fragrant cappucino after my swim, that's a prefect day...hehe.. Later, we went to eat at the restaurant and chit-chat. She talked about her view toward philosophy and it was quite true, so, i also shared another point of view. Then, start to think many which caused me slmost forget to take my bag and even forget to send them home. ==" haha...But then i dunno wat i was thinking as i dun have metacognition at tat time.
Hmm...Today, considered as starry night in KL, compare to most the days. Then, the rest of the night is for the booklet.. I have actually completed my parts by Sunday alr, Hmm...but I only received their info today. Haiz, they seem didnt open the booklet file and take a look. There are only one page for them and they sent me 4 songs. Spent time and energy to squeeze the songs into the space, haha, felt a bit stupid.
Class on the tuesday discussed about body image. I think I am satisfied. It is because I tried fat, I tried thin and now I felt I am in moderate. In so called "fat mode", i know wat the discrimination is like. In so called "Thin" mode, i felt no energy and weak. So, the stage now, is the best for me and so i satisfied.
Hmm..., if that is the reason that cause our world has these prejudice and the "thing" is considered as so powerful, y not use back t "thing" to clear the prejudice also? Time changed, things change, people changes...isnt it? The nurture thingy can cause changing.
The so called "beautiful" is natural or created? DUn know... However, I think natural thing is always beautiful which the human made things can never surpass. WHen we havent fully understood about natural, there are always many surprises surrounding us which can be so unpredictable.
Hmm....Listen to the bird singing and water sound, watching the flower blooming and tree dancing. The most unique thing is that, they will never be the same but they are actually the same, they changed every day and surprising me every day...HAHA... Maybe the hardest thing is, listen to the sound inside our heart.
So, exam were coming soon and most of the time of these few days were used to study.
Journal of yesterday
After exam, home to study and then exam again. After all midterms finished, went for swim...arr....nice whether today. so nice, ^^ If there was a cup of fragrant cappucino after my swim, that's a prefect day...hehe.. Later, we went to eat at the restaurant and chit-chat. She talked about her view toward philosophy and it was quite true, so, i also shared another point of view. Then, start to think many which caused me slmost forget to take my bag and even forget to send them home. ==" haha...But then i dunno wat i was thinking as i dun have metacognition at tat time.
Hmm...Today, considered as starry night in KL, compare to most the days. Then, the rest of the night is for the booklet.. I have actually completed my parts by Sunday alr, Hmm...but I only received their info today. Haiz, they seem didnt open the booklet file and take a look. There are only one page for them and they sent me 4 songs. Spent time and energy to squeeze the songs into the space, haha, felt a bit stupid.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Journal of yesterday
Morning, went to play with some difficult children. It is a great experience to play w them. They are easily to be contented and listen to their parents most of the time. Hmmm...
Later, i went for a class...dun really know whether i had learned many things or not. However, the experience they shared is good for me. I hope I will learn more in the future. If think too much, thing will change alr. Sometime it is not the thing that let us learn, it is our attitude determine how much we can learn.
I had a terrible headache today, just like wat i had in the past. I never had this headache for a long time alr. I thinked it is because I ate many garlic today and the acidic in my body cause my stomach burning plus headache. Hard to concentrate to the class and also feeling bad. However, today, i still able to smile to the trainer and didnt angry because of my headache...hoo...
Home, drink more water to dilute the acidic and then sleep immediately. Sleeping is always the best medicine for me to cure the headache...
Later, i went for a class...dun really know whether i had learned many things or not. However, the experience they shared is good for me. I hope I will learn more in the future. If think too much, thing will change alr. Sometime it is not the thing that let us learn, it is our attitude determine how much we can learn.
I had a terrible headache today, just like wat i had in the past. I never had this headache for a long time alr. I thinked it is because I ate many garlic today and the acidic in my body cause my stomach burning plus headache. Hard to concentrate to the class and also feeling bad. However, today, i still able to smile to the trainer and didnt angry because of my headache...hoo...
Home, drink more water to dilute the acidic and then sleep immediately. Sleeping is always the best medicine for me to cure the headache...
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Journal of the day
Today's topic in college is nature and nurture.
Found that people stop thinking when they get an answer and assume that it is right. When we think that nature and nurture are both equally importance, we stop thinking. We should question the answer, how many percent for nature and how many percent for nurture?
My conclusion for the time being is nature is more importance for being understood. Nurture is more importance for changing. The nature will determine the chances a person can be influenced by the nurture. The nurture always chasing nature and adapt to nature.
Finally, able to change more. Courage is not formed in one day, but is accumulated bit by bit everyday. Including changing. It is really true that sometime it is not impossible, it is just that we havent found our ways of doing so.
Another topic in life is attitude. Bad things and good things happen everyday on everyone. When we depend on SOMEONE, we hope that every good thing happen on us and bad thing leave us alone. However, in reality, it will not usually happen and then we will getting angry on THEM instead of ourselves.
Today, many things happen, good and bad. If in the past, i will be in depress mode alr and only focus on the bad thing. Today, I found out that I am able to be happy even though sth bad happen. I am lucky in the morning and finish task by today. However, I miss a bus in the afternoon and met some pervert in the bus. Later, I met a friend and she shared sth with me which cause me excited. Haha...Besides, an exprienced friend also give me advise in many thing and tell me his life story. Then, friend's mother made 3 glutimous rice for me. Haha...But then later someone say sth not really nice to me...
In the past, i will only get angry or sad with the bad thing happened today, I cant SEE wat good has happened. It is because I treated the so called "good thing" as sth normal and should happen whereas the "bad" thing as sth should not happen. Today, I am able to SEE wat good has happened because of knowing to appreciate life and bad thing cant affect my mood. ^^ Just a simple appreciation..
Yeah...a good thing...found out that i am walking toward my way...
Found that people stop thinking when they get an answer and assume that it is right. When we think that nature and nurture are both equally importance, we stop thinking. We should question the answer, how many percent for nature and how many percent for nurture?
My conclusion for the time being is nature is more importance for being understood. Nurture is more importance for changing. The nature will determine the chances a person can be influenced by the nurture. The nurture always chasing nature and adapt to nature.
Finally, able to change more. Courage is not formed in one day, but is accumulated bit by bit everyday. Including changing. It is really true that sometime it is not impossible, it is just that we havent found our ways of doing so.
Another topic in life is attitude. Bad things and good things happen everyday on everyone. When we depend on SOMEONE, we hope that every good thing happen on us and bad thing leave us alone. However, in reality, it will not usually happen and then we will getting angry on THEM instead of ourselves.
Today, many things happen, good and bad. If in the past, i will be in depress mode alr and only focus on the bad thing. Today, I found out that I am able to be happy even though sth bad happen. I am lucky in the morning and finish task by today. However, I miss a bus in the afternoon and met some pervert in the bus. Later, I met a friend and she shared sth with me which cause me excited. Haha...Besides, an exprienced friend also give me advise in many thing and tell me his life story. Then, friend's mother made 3 glutimous rice for me. Haha...But then later someone say sth not really nice to me...
In the past, i will only get angry or sad with the bad thing happened today, I cant SEE wat good has happened. It is because I treated the so called "good thing" as sth normal and should happen whereas the "bad" thing as sth should not happen. Today, I am able to SEE wat good has happened because of knowing to appreciate life and bad thing cant affect my mood. ^^ Just a simple appreciation..
Yeah...a good thing...found out that i am walking toward my way...
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